DAD

Dad bought me to IKEA to buy two new Cactus. My previous two cactus died because I did not water them for 2 weeks. I thought it was ok, but apparenty, they need to be watered a little daily. They are plants afterall.
So, today, Dad accompanied to shop, though a little disgruntled at first, because he was really stress from work, but we do have a lot of things in common as father and daughter. And we chose the same two cactus, because of their lovely colours. I shall post a photo up really soon!

Upon reaching home, Dad cooked me a wonderful simple dinner meal- noodles with egg, fish and soup. I was pretty touched by the love he showered upon me.

It is the simple things we do together that brings a smile on my face.
"Well I'm gonna tell you now, that you're always number one
If a million miles were between us
I'd want you to know, if I had to drive all day take that flight
Across this ocean, I'm coming home tonight"

Trying to gain weight!

You need 1853.9 calories per day to maintain your current weight without exercise.
You need 1926.2 calories per day to reach your goal weight slowly and maintain that weight without exercise.
If you reduce your current caloric intake to 1353.9 calories per day you will lose one pound per week without exercise.
If you increase your current caloric intake to 2353.9 calories per day, you will gain one pound per week.
If you exercise for 60 minutes each day, you will be able to reach your goal weight with 2386.1 calories per day.


I am going insane with numbers. Basically, I need to gain weight, and that is like 2353.9 calories per day. Michael Phelps take 12,000 calories per day. I am like pathetic.
I better stop losing weight becausee I take 1353.9 calories a day- not on purpose, it just happens work overtakes all the time to eat.

I will update soon if I manage to gain weight through various methods.
Now, I am eating 5 pieces of bread for supper just to hit my 2353.9 calories for the day, before I go to sleep, and the day ends.

:P

While Studying for Exams

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

It never dawned on me how quiet, how nice, how serene it is to be still-

in Your love, in Your comfort, in Your overseeing protection.

Sometimes, anxiety takes over,

but despite it all, above it all, through it all, You never once left.

From the depths of my heart, Thank You :)

Hi Readers

Shocking news: I am moving back to Januarywinds Wordpress, because, simply because I love and I miss the good memories. So back to happier moments.
Wordpress will allow me to have locked entries, much to my delight.

And today is the 9th of June 2008.

Love, Xiu

Sunday

• Sorted things out with God
• Had a nice day out with Melissa, and a surprise catch up session with Chongyang!
• Wanted to delete the previous blog post, but Ami commented- I tend to delete posts that are far too honest. Revealing my vulnerability is freaky
• Met Jerevin's brother and got him nuggets and fries to eat as he tide through his working shift
• I love long bus rides alone with the Ipod plugged in
• PS: God, I am still pissed at Elliot. I need to be forgiving!
• I miss Siti/ Nia

Run away

(Not for the light- hearted. Full of whines and complains. Typed whatever that came to mind. Not coherant. Not beautiful. Just me on a freaking out whee mornings of a Sunday)

I have a good mind to run away, hide under my blanket and not go for church camp. Simply because the excuse is- I have no time to study.
And then I know I am depending too much on myself, and I should let go and let God.

Still, which logical thinking creature will allow 15 out of 30 days of her holidays be used up for an overseas trip and church camp, and forsake studying for the upcoming exams. The only sound salvation is to not go for church camp, and use those days for studying.

And then, I have this whole image of God laughing at me for worrying about my studies for no good reason, and forsaking Him, when it is really such a small matter to Him. If only I could let Him take lead, instead of me doing what I always think is right.

I am really not fleeing from a thousand temptations that are blatantly right smack in my face.
You know how they always say, you need that God thing in your life.
I have it, but I am not living my life as if I have it. I am like some soul running in every single way I think is right.

Problem is, I cannot outsmart God.

Yeah, so look here God, do something tonight. Scare me, get someone to hammer things in me, do whatever You think will make me run to You. Because I am not, I am running away, and I don't want to, but I am. Sounds pretty dumb. I think You know it is quite stupid to stay committed in this JC ministry for years, seeing people come and go, and now it is finally my turn to leave a legacy, and I am growing very tired.

Serving You can be a joy, can be scary, can be tiring, can be easy to want to run away and say 'You know what, I think I can do things my own way'. And that's exactly when the world has taken control over me. Yes, the world.

The every advertisement, the every upcoming examinations, the every bit of things I desire and crave for in the world- success, fame, to be loved. You name it. I want those. You shake your head and tell me, those are temporal happiness. You are eternal. I know those principles in my head. I just need to start calming down, spend quality time with You.

Here that, I need You, right now.

Goodnight.

Malay Wedding

The Malay Wedding that is going on at my HDB's void deck, have singers that are singing Love Songs- From This Moment ... etc.

I am dying hearing such nice love songs and thinking, it'd be my turn next in 15 years.

Thank God those singers don't go out of tune, and the music still sounds nice after travelling all the up to my house- which is the 6th storey.

See, I love living in High Rise Flats, you get to experience the community living, hearing love songs from Malay Weddings going on downstairs, and ... occasionally, walk past Chinese funerals... What a Juxtaposition!

Physiotherapy session

The trip to the physiotherapist:

My condition improved a lot after my first session.
However, at the clinic, I saw that the other people around me had far worse conditions than me- we are all around the same age, but they all seem to sustain far worse stuff.

Two or three had knee injuries.
One had lower bad pain.
Another had some shoulder blade problem.

So I was sitting quietly in a corner with a localised muscle bundling, and telling my physiotherapist to attend to the rest first, since I felt I don't need as much urgent attention.

So I was being nice, kind and marginalised.


Look forward to: Next post which will have a lot more nicer China photographs. Nicer, way nicer!
I am still waiting for someone to send me photos that we took at Sun Yat Sen Memorial Hall.

On Singapore Flyer

Friday, Leroy and myself made our way to a trip to the Singapore Flyer! It is some big flyer rollar coaster thing that can go as high as 165metres above ground level.

So, the view we can get of Singapore is awesome. Just that, Singapore is not very fascinating, so it is pretty much buildings, big land space, sea, and more buildings.

If I can recreate Singapore's landscape- I don't think I can do it any better. Really, it is not easy to fit 5 million people into this small land space. The roads- the way they intertwine to create traffic flow- seeing it from bird's eye view is really brilliant.

From here, you can see the floating platform being extended for this year's National Day Parade.

Hairy legs, you go dude!

Okay, Leroy loves kids- Joshua will get a shock from this. Because according to Joshua, most guys don't love kids. Leroy is an exception. The kids sitting at the capsule with us are beautiful. They have blue eyes and blond hair- you name it. I have good reason to think that they are genetically modified to be so perfect- haha, just a thought!

The kids and their hot mom on the right. The lady on the left is their aunt.

I bought him that wonderful stripped shirt. And I think I have good taste, because this is the second time he wore it out! He must have liked it a lot, heh :P

I think this shot makes my maternal instinct tick.

See the many many cars?

Oh yes, this is how the capsule looks like. People sit inside one of these. Pay a lot to sit in one of these. Unless you won the tickets for free.

Housing estates in the East Side of Singapore can be seen here. The green patch is Marina Golf Course- according to Leroy.

I just like the boat- I think.

And we conclude the flyer journey.

His face shows that it is boring. For me, I can just proudly say, I have been up that giant rollar coaster capsule- The Singapore Flyer. Heh heh. The price of the ticket to the Singapore Flyer is overrated though.

(:

Am back from a wonderful date
Shall continue this post about:

• the wonderful date
• how brilliant my physiotherapist was to me the other day
• my feelings are a big rollar coaster ride- I got a huge shock recently when this thought came to me, 'Maybe...I can live without God', then Shut Eyes Close Ears Go Back To Sleep, Flee From Such Thoughts

Friday friday friday

I am not planning on going solo

Geeky specs, toothy grin

You walk this way with me

I will stay happy with You

That is if I remember keeping You by my side

It is me, You were always there

I just keep walking away

That seemed so long ago

The last time I looked at You,

at anything in adoration

I hope I still do

And I do still love You

Mass upload of photos

Sleeping together as a big group at night :D Everynight, the bunch of girls will gather in one person's hotel room, and we join beds and sleep together. Pretty uncomfortable, but brilliantly fun :D

The shoe I painted myself ;D

Bad signs in China- Bad English

The view from the top of the Oriental Pearl Tower. I think we were at 164th floor.

We went on a boat trip!

Weepeng and her bear :D

Weepeng and my hands form a beautiful heart! :D

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Below are some rugby photos :D

=)

Absence makes the heart fonder- certainly do, certainly does!

And it is quite a happy feeling actually :D

Pleasantly nice

Thoughts

• When I talked to Leroy's Mom, and I saw his unbandaged fingers close up, my heart broke
• If only there was honeystars by the side of the bed today, but I am still happy :)
• My back injury is getting bad? Or really bad. I am so lazy to visit the physiotherapist
• I am afraid to wash PS I Love You, because it is gonna make me cry, again
• I hanged two tortoise keychains at Leroy's car
• Just finished unpacking my luggage
• I miss the overseas trip, even though it has only been one day after I come back
• Study- that is like the most popular word I am seeing on my peers' blogs
• I have bad complexion and dry hair- not that my love ones judge me by my looks anyway
• I love my soft bed at home- hotel beds are all hard and terrible
• Joshua was right- a long _ _ _ _ _ _ _ session with you is nice :)
• Lifehouse - You and Me is cliche, outdated but still amazing

To Leroy =)

Sorry that sometimes in front of my girlfriends, I use your frostbitten fingers as a story to tell my friends, and until my mom told me, I never realised that it actually embarrassed you quite a bit. I am sorry!

I hope you recover as fast as possible. Mom and I believe it will recover because you are still young. And of course, seeing how you slim down so much because of it, we hope that you will be mentally and physically strong enough to get back on track with training.

You are someone that is secure, stable and definitely very mature for your age. You will excel in life and I believe in you!

Thanks for being there for me all the while. Thanks for not giving in to my whines and cries and guiding me to grow up. You left an impact in my life.

You are a person with many talents and a wonderful personality. Continue to be who you are, and one fine day, I will see you acheive great and many things!

LOVED =)

I dun have photos of the trip yet, but once I do, I shall upload them.

As for now, I am feeling very happy today! =)

Shall get back to studying asap!

2:24AM

Haven't finished unpacking

Go sleep or watch those DVDs I bought from Overseas?

Having my period

Wondering if you still love me

Thinking about God and don't ask me why

Keep thinking God is going to punish me for not studying hard enough this year

Read Ami's mail halfway and intend to read the rest later

Miss Xinxuan- thanking God I got to know her
Mind wandered off to this person called Yi Jie- I think; see I hardly know this stranger

Am little mad at Elliot for that stupid Dare

First night sleeping without Xinxuan by my side after 10 days- we sound like a married couple

Love Melissa a lot suddenly, Joshua too

Deleted two paragraphs of what I typed

P.S. I Love You DVD lying on the table now

Don't intend to watch it

I need sleep

I need you

and You

Last but not least, Chloe is sweet! I saw all her sms-es and blog comments :D

BACK IN SINGAPORE!

With my love, exhaustion and filled with happiness, memories, I am back in Singapore!

I will miss the 10 days overseas trip with the bunch of girls, and somehow, of course, and especially so, my roommate- xinxuan.

That apart, thanks for those who tried to make their way down, Alex, Chloe.
And thanks to those who made their way down to the arrival hall, Louis, Chengying, Melissa, Joshua, Leroy and my wonderful parents.
It was beautiful to see all of you there- I was pleasantly surprised!

I need rest and I will unpack my stuff now =)

HELLO WORLD

Using computer in the hotel.
Gosh, I am happy, tired, exhausted, excited, half pissed- influx of emotions.
Travelling to so many places! Nanjing, Suzhou, Zhouzhuang, Shanghai, New Zealand!

I am going insane!

Exams are in less than 30days away, and I am travelling all over the beautiful world.

Life has been great to me so far.

Long coach rides set me thinking about a lot of things, and I am happy that I did sort things through.

Met a lot of nice people too!

See you all in a few days' time!

Away for a long while!

Hey, people! I will be going to Shanghai/ Nanjing/ Suzhou with the China Studies people for 7 days!

Siti, it is really alright if you cannot make it to send me off, I love you anyway! (I will still come back in 7 days and I will be fine!)

Leroy, thanks for sending me off, although I reckon it is nothing compared to your 1 month trip. Really, you have experienced so much in life, I think everything I do in comparison is nothing to you. I hope you enjoy yourself in Singapore!

Melissa, Justina, Chloe- gosh my brilliant lovely girls! I received all your sms-es. Sorry my handphone has no battery and I can't reply, but when I saw those messages flowing in, I felt very loved!

Xiangyu, Dyanne, Sharon- my favourite juniors! Thank you for the short trip to Heeren and thanks Xiangyu for accompanying me to to piercing shop and all. Thanks!

J2 Rugby Team & Coach- we had such a wonderful and beautiful team dinner at Swensons, and I think it is going to be a very fond memory for me, as I today, 24 May 2008, MAY conclude my last competitive rugby playing. I am glad we won runner ups today. I am glad Sarah improved so much through a short time. I am glad Suyee and I made efforts to reconcile things. I am glad Clarice and Kim didn't blame me for their scars. I am glad I have wonderful juniors to handover things to.

My last rugby competition today was blazing hot, blazing brilliant, and with a very good senior team, supportive junior team, and of course, one of my best and most understanding coaches. She is brilliant, and she could lead the team's confidence to this level today, it showed a lot about her determination to believe in us, even though we were at our weakest. She is not someone who concedes to defeat. And for that, I want to be like her, and I want to take that away as a life lesson.

Last but not least, I want to thank God for placing things so nicely for me today.
My God is a God capable of big things. And He showed it to me again and again. I am totally amazed.

With that, see you readers 7 days later. Don't miss this space too much. I will miss you all though.

♥ ♥ ♥

Entries from Ami

http://ami-mypeople.blogspot.com/2008/05/leroy.html



http://ami-mypeople.blogspot.com/2008/05/xiu.html

I love it, and Leroy, Ami knows about you, so he wrote something interesting about you, I hope you like it!

Sorry for pestering you today about the folks' affairs though you are busy. I hope I didn't interrupt you too much!

Gawd

Friday morning- Mom found out about my navel piercing while I was sleeping- my shirt rolled up.

She went bersak and killed me. And God decided it wasn't time-out for me yet.

Siti, Chloe, Sijie, Puv were the sweetest being around ever. They sms-ed and they called to ask if I was fine- and I ended up sobbing like a river.

Leroy was being nonchalant and told me that they matter would blow over, that it would be disapproval and then acceptance afterwards.
I nearly murdered him for acting so emotionless and seeming as though he did not care. He nearly got murdered, if it wasn't because he was caught up in some sports meet.

Turned out, it was as he predicted.

The folks got sick of arguing with me over a simple navel piercing. Got sick of locking me up in the house. Got sick of trying to ban me from my upcoming overseas trip.

I kept quiet throughout the ordeal and they gave up in a silent manner.

Thanks to all those who reminded me to speak to the folks nicely and stay calm. Over the top screaming would certainly not have worked.

I have no idea- I just wanted to stick to what I am doing- something out of ordinary, but definitely not wrong.

Lucky Girl

I must declare how fortunate I am to be able to go out on a dinner date with my favourite boys- Leroy, Joshua, Alex.

The highlight of the after-dinner drink was that I tried Baily's Irish Cream after requesting for something sweet for a lady, and it turned out to be fantabulous and totally wonderful.

That totally made my midweek a lot happier and a lot more lovely. It set me smiling till I went to sleep that night.
♥ ♥ ♥

Totally rare to have all of them gathered together to spend time with (insignificant) me, and make me a very happy girl.

Photos entry!

I shall upload SOME photos, the better ones are not with me. These are those that are taken by my handphone.





Siti and myself in an empty auditorium. We mistook the venue for an event, and stepped into the air con blasted auditorium, only to find ourselves alone there. It is hilarious, and I starting suggesting camwhoring, to think Siti played along with me. That's what friends are for, I guess :D

Totally random pictures of (1) A flower (2) my new shoes , while awaiting for Leroy to finish the super long debriefing after his dragonboat training.

Leroy's frostbitten hands. Recent photos showed that those frostbitten fingertips are disfigured. Battlescars that he so proudly have!

Random and I nearly wanted to delete this photo and not upload, but for the heck of it, I took a photo of myself before I went for a random relaxing swim thereafter.

College Day with Sijie- We look hilariously happy. I love her for making me smile.

Shirleen- my favourite junior since a long time ago. I like the first photo where you can see my nice flower hairtie. We had such a fun day out!

Cute spectacles!

Outing with Joshua, Alex, Leroy. More photos below! This is me and my best friend, Joshua. We just bought movie tickets and were waiting for time to pass and the movie to start.

Guess what, after the movie, we lingered to the empty carpark of the shopping centre, and realised the skyline was so beautiful, and starting snapping photos of it!


My best guy friends ever in life!

We found these two attached and empty trolleys in the carpark. Joshua and I sat in it, and Alex starting pushing both of us from one end of the carpark to the other end! Hilariously mind blowing!

And as usual, guys fight it out.

That's all for now. I shall upload the rest once I get them!